What A Girl Wants

It is funny to think back to what I wanted in high school and compare that to what I want now as a woman.

A Bed & Breakfast that I stayed at in Germany.

I wanted to be living in Europe with a career in something international, business suit required. I did not want to be married and most definitely did not want children. I wanted to be able to travel on a whim and see and experience whatever culture I found myself in. I wanted independence and importance.

That is not what I want now...

Now I want to be the best wife I can. I want to spend time with my kids and raise them well. I want to write novels and screenplays in my pajamas. I still love to travel but I like to be home with my family much more than traveling by myself (although if we all load up to travel together - that is great too!). And instead of living abroad I dream of living in a little farmhouse with animals and crops all around.

I have traveled and lived abroad and I loved those experiences. God has blessed me so much to allow me to see so much of what I wanted to see while still blessing me with the family I never wanted (I am so glad He knows better than I do what I want!!).

But now I want to establish The Home Place. A place that my children will feel as connected to as the home I grew up in. I want to be surrounded by some of the beauty that is found in America instead of dreaming about beautiful scenes across the sea.

Perhaps the little thing called stability is going to my head as we celebrate the first year of owning our first home this week. This is the longest my children have ever lived in one place and I want more.

But if you send me a ticket to an international destination - I will still take it! I guess that part of me will never change.